~Slayer
The
Dream was always the same. She always saw the woman, who was her at the same
time, frantically
packing.
She watched the woman load and mount the horse-drawn wagon. Although she was
always terrified in The Dream, the people who wanted to hurt her never reached
the woman. Sometimes Jenna woke before seeing the burning house, but The
Dream never went beyond the woman turning to see the night sky aglow from the
fire of her home in the distance after her decampment. Some might consider The
Dream a recurring nightmare, but it did not occur frequently enough to earn the
clinical title of 'recurring'. However, what The Dream did do is always
foreshadow a significant event in Jenna's life. The first time she remembered
having The Dream was at three years old, a few days before her mother died.
Since then, Jenna dreamt it a few other times preceding influential occurrences
in her life, but The Dream never delineated between positive or negative
experiences, it simply meant that something important would happen soon. Over
time, Jenna learned to keep her guard up once The Dream reappeared.
She
sat up in bed. Crap! she thought.
Through the window, she could see the sun hinting its ascent from behind the
horizon with the promise of a perfect Northwestern spring day. This can't be. I've been looking forward to
this trip for weeks. Although The Dream was not specific regarding the
event, Jenna's initial gut feeling was that the danger was associated with the
camping trip. This assumption raised several questions though: Was she the only
one in peril or did it extend to the group? Did the danger lie in cancelling
her plans or could the hazard be avoided by going on the trip? What about Aunt
Donna? Would she be all right without Jenna staying home? These were exactly
the type of questions she hated after The Dream occurred. The Dream was a major
contributing factor to the reason she felt square-peggish, and often felt it
would be better not knowing something was on the horizon, like real people.
Instead, she was given a gift in the form of a clue that something important
was imminent but with no context. With little context anyway, since she always
received a tingling feeling in her hands when the crossroad introduced by The
Dream was reached. Yet, the tingling still did not give any indication of the
best course of action to take or whether she should do anything at all, they
just felt prickly announcing the situation was at hand.
Jenna
donned her robe and walked down the hall to Aunt Donna's room. She gently
rapped on the door, "Aunt Donna, I have a problem." No response. A
little louder, "Aunt Donna?"
Donna
was not a morning person and, after a few unflattering snorts, sleepily
replied, "Wha...?"
"I
have a problem," Jenna bit her bottom lip, which she did when she was
unsure of herself.
"Yes
Dear. What is it?"
"I...I
had The Dream last night."
"Oh
no." Donna was not a big fan of The Dream either because of its ambiguity.
"So what are you thinking?" Donna was fully awake.
"I
don't know." Jenna was almost in tears. "I hate The Dream. It's
impossible to worry about everything, to guess what it could possibly
mean," frustrated tears rolled down her cheeks.
Donna
pulled her in for a hug and tried to give comfort, "I know. It seems
impossible."
"The
worst of it is that I always worry it could mean I might lose someone I love,
like with mom." She cried in earnest.
"I
know," she stroked Jenna's hair, "It's frustrating. Let's go make
some coffee and think this through." Donna had to get all the neurons
firing if she was going to be any help.
A
couple of cups of coffee later, they sat at the kitchen table trying to figure
out what to do. Jenna was torn between going on the camping trip to protect her
friends at the outing or staying home to protect Donna. Another option was to
scrub the trip altogether if she could get the other girls to agree. She tried
to think of a way to tell the others they should cancel without sounding
freakish or paranoid.
The
sun had fully risen revealing a bright blue, cloudless spring sky, a Northwest rarity,
meaning Jenna only had about two hours before the girls would arrive to pick
her up. Donna tried to get her to eat some toast but she was not hungry. A
sickening knot had settled in the pit of Jenna’s stomach as she went through
the motions of preparing for the day. She cried out of frustration in the
shower because she had no idea what she should do, but a decision had to be
made soon. She got dressed and still hadn't decided what she would do, if
anything.
Jenna
was in a somber mood as sat on the front porch waiting for the girls to show
up. The sun felt good on her face but did little for her churning stomach. After
a bit, she could hear the rumble of Jessica's Jeep and she watched it turn the
corner onto her block. As soon is it was in full sight, the tingling in her
hands began.